R.I.P Charlotte :(

There she is, Aww :) She was such a lovely tarantula, named Charlotte after the spider in Charlotte's Web, A lovely tempered spider. So, Today I had to face the loss of my lovely tarantula, and I understand to many, if not most, this sounds ridiculous. But you know when your childhood hamster died, it really upset you? Your world was torn apart? Nothing could replace them? Yup. That's how I feel about Charlotte. She was friendly, as far as spiders go and she had a lovely, lovely temperament. I could always say with confidence 'touch her, she won't move or attack you, promise'.
She's never gone for me, once. She even had a phantom pregnancy once, bless her :)
So she'll be missed, I genuinely mean that. Just like you'll miss nibbles, or whatever your childhood pet was (named at animal lovers).

On a lighter note, the other 5 I own are flourishing and better than ever, although My Cobalt Blue has decided she's far too beautiful for the world's eyes so has taken to webbing up her tank, which does make me giggle. Such a grumpy spider.
As I type this Pan, my male bearded dragon, is running about nomming cabbage all over the tank, stopping only to stare back at me when I look at him, haha :)

I do love animals, they do make my life a little bit more interesting. Especially watching a male bearded dragon get denied action by the female one, priceless :')

Anyway, Rest in Peace Charlotte, I'll miss you, You were a gem of a tarantula, no one could of asked for a nicer spidey :) Enjoy your webbed heaven, and look after Rose and Wellies (my two other deceased tarantulas, wellies was only a spiderling)

Perhaps they'll be a baby Chile Rose needing a home eh? The circle of life is yet to strike again :)

Bar Etiquette... FOR THE CUSTOMER!

So, I work in a bar, yes, it's not the most high class job but it's a part time thing for extra cash while at uni. And I enjoy it... Most of the time. Plenty of people can tell you I have had more than one or two rants about customers and people who come to the bar.
Now, may I point out, The bar I work in is lovely, the staff are lovely, we're all polite, trained well, good at service skills and always, ALWAYS happy to help. As a rule, we get normal customers, who are pleasant enough. But obviously, this isn't aimed at them!

So, Number one pet hate above ANYTHING is manners. Or lack thereof. I'm not smiling and being pleasant because I have to, you know? I'm also not here for you to bark your order at with severe lack of respect. It really, really annoys me when you get an arsehole who just says 'white wine'. For starters, it doesn't sound complete without a please, and also who the fuck made you king of the world? I'm not here to be treated like shit, you're rude to me i'm gonna be rude right back at you. I don't HAVE to serve you, I CAN get you kicked out, and let's face it, who they going to listen to, the wronged person who is loyal and works for them, or some drunk person who's rude? Exactly. Not that I would, but you know. It really riles me. If i'm in a mood that could rival the wrath of the god's and I manage to say please and thankyou, then why the hell can't you? You're not at work, you're not starving, seething after a big row with your boyfriend and behind on your coursework, and even if you are you're out having a good time, i'm at work. If i can get the hell over whatevers bothering me and give you an ounce of respect then you can do the same, Arsehole.

Number two is really vague orders.
"I'll have a lager please"
"A glass of wine please"
"A spirit please, with coke"
(These are genuine orders I have been told myself, by the way)

So, I understand that sometimes you may not have decided and that's fine, but you know if you want a red, white or rosé wine, you also know what spirit you drink, so why do it? I sometimes feel like with some customers they're just looking for an excuse to waste your time more than they have to, Like they get a kick out of it, and this irritates me. The worst part is when I'll come back like 'Which lager, we have three' So i'll list our lagers, tell them the percentage or a bit about them if needs be, and thats fine. For people who accept this, continue with their order and progress with their night, I thank you. You have only mildly irritated me with your vague silliness. But then, you get the Arseholes who seem annoyed you're asking them which one, and giving them choices. Well I am SO sorry for trying to get you the best drink possible, I'm sorry my service skills and manners are offending you, but your all-round pig shit impression isn't exactly tickling my fancy, either.
So, you want a lager, brilliant. If I don't give you choices and get you the one you want you'll moan. I've tried the carry on with it approach too, and started pouring our cheapest, or our most popular, and then i get 'I didn't want that one'.
SO WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU SPECIFY, OH BUDDY OF MINE?!
Seriously, make your mind up while you're waiting to be served rather than whinging you've been waiting for 2 minutes. Again, I feel compelled to say Arsehole.

My number 3 pet hate is persistent, usually drunken, men. It really annoys me when you get disgusting perverts who are just hunting for an excuse to talk to you. Is your life THAT boring? Are you THAT lonely?
I'm all for a bit of banter, it is a bar you know, it's to be expected some poor chaps going to try their luck at some point, to which you kindly decline, well, I do anyway. Usually a bit of a laugh and a joke, and then they go on their way, And i continue with my job. A bit of banter can be fun, a cheeky compliment or two, hey, i'm a girl, you wanna tell me I have pretty eyes then thankyou, that's lovely of you to say. This, however does NOT mean i'm coming home with you. At all. Not even a little bit. Now, I'm not the most subtle-looking female. By that I don't mean i'm the most drop dead gorgeous thing ever, not even close to that. But I work in a bar, I'm 5ft3 and I'm blessed/cursed with a VERY curvy feminine figure.
So you know, it's a bit hard to hide your boobs when you're an F cup, but I still try. T-shirts, covering tops, and such. I don't WANT the attention off these guys, so I won't provoke it, So with me not being sexual at all, to the best of my ability, you can at least give me the respect to not fucking talk to my chest. It won't talk back, and it's very defensive boyfriend who goes by the name of Fist will soon get involved, comprends?
Anyway, the persistent side of it. So, If i get asked for my number, to go out sometime, etc. I decline. Kindly at first, but not in a flirty playful well. I say I have a boyfriend, as I do. You'd think that that'd be the end of it? Oh no.
"It's alright dahhlin, you can 'ave two boyfriends"
Oh dear god, really? You really think that highly of me don't you? Maybe your sister, or in fact mother has shown that to you, but it is NOT right and it is certainly not anything I would dream of doing. One man's enough trouble (haha ;])
I've said i'm gay before "I'll turn ya straight"
I've said i'm not interested, which is about as subtle as a sledgehammer, and one guy, only one mind, clearly stupider than the rest, ACCUSED me of playing hard to get. Am I really? Oh yes, Silly me. You are clearly the most perfect vision of manhood I ever did see, Let me fall at your feet immediately and.... THROW THE FUCK UP.
Did you REALLY think that'd work?! Just for that I'm not even going to be polite. Two loyal words followed shortly after ;)
So yes, some girls may be playful and playing hard to get, but I make it clear i'm not, And If i came into your work and made sexual/romantic advances on you it'd surely not be tolerated, so remember i'm at work. Which is lucky, as by now i'd of broke your jaw ¬.¬

Siiiideeee nooooote!!
*So, i work in a bar, fair enough. This DOES NOT give anyone the permission to grab my arse or touch me intimately while i'm glass collecting or walking past. I *will* kick the living shit out of you. If i grabbed your cock against your will, it'd be sexual harrassment. SO BACK THE FUCK OFF*

Number four is when customers are pulling a face at the bar staff for functioning. You do realise that we are human beings, not robots? Our sole purpose is not to serve you, we need to eat, drink and cool down too, right?
Our hands get dirty, we wash them. We need a drink, we neck water quickly inbetween serving. We're starving *very common occurence on a night shift*
, we eat crisps inbetween serving, but in a hygeinic way. So why the hell are you wrinkling up your brow and glaring at me?
We don't get breaks when it's busy. It's not like your office job when you can swan off for a cig now and again, or nip to the toilet when you feel necessary. We have to put everything on hold so we can get your drinks to you. So don't be moaning at me for necking a pint of water in about ten seconds because i'm dehydrated and overheating.
Also, i'm not washing my hands for fun, i said give me one second so why the moaning and glaring? Do you WANT milk and lime combined in your vodka and coke?
I thought not. Step off, bitch!


I have quite a few pet hates and I understand I can be quite venomous, but you back a caged animal into a corner too much and it's going to maul *the fuck* out of you eventually, right? Common courtesy seems to be a thing of the past for plenty of people these days, and a simple thankyou or please seem to be like asking them to tell me an Aesops fable in perfect latin, which i'm certainly not. People in general annoy me, for simple things, stupid, unnecessary things. Most of the pet hates reside in other factors though, such as public transport, waiting in a queue, etc.

So keep your eyes peeled for my rant on using public transport *winks*

Completely Selfish Rant

So I feel a bit rubbish and decided I would vent. I also find it quite amusing that I only ever seem to write a blog when I am in a less than brilliant mood. Typical female, eh? No, not really. I just think it's more important to get bad moods off your chest than to rub good moods all over peoples faces, somehow I feel thats a bit mean.

I've been watching Bleach, not far into it but I enjoy it. Good Anime so far :) I like the Hollows in it, they're good, very mean but still semi-rational... Anyway, I digress. I think that's my most used phrase on blogs. 'I digress' I say it all the time. I just don't seem to be a big fan of linear thinking, or speaking.. or acting. Or linear anything for that matter.

So, i've been thinking about me. Yes, how selfish? But I have. I've been trying to figure out what I want from certain situations.. Like my relationship, University, etc. I really don't know. I am completely ambiguous when it comes to thinking about things that need a solid decision. One minute I want to be single, the next I don't. I've been mainly thinking about all the components I have, that make me myself I guess.

I'm stubborn when I get into certain moods, and I know i'm doing it, yet I continue.. Why? I don't know. I haven't got a single clue as to why. I just feel very 'why should I' about everything and I think no, i don't want to talk so I won't. I don't want to sort things out because it's not me who needs to apologise. Anyway, I don't know why. I also am very lazy when it comes to dealing with hassle, mainly in relationships. If one option poses less hassle I'll usually go with it. Like if breaking up is more hassle than staying together, regardless of what I actually want to do, i'll stay with them. There's probably other reasons, I don't know them. I know what they're not though. I don't NEED to be with someone, I also don't feel the need to always be someones girlfriend or to feel wanted, I think I gave up on that kind of stuff a long time ago. I also don't crave love, and I don't want it really. Some have told me this is because I'm scared of it, but i'm not. I don't think I am anyway, I'd just rather not become an extension of someone for a long time into the foreseeable future. I don't see anything wrong with that. Some people adore being in love and want to be with someone and theres fireworks, fluffy kittens and all round good feelings... but that's not for me thanks.

I don't even know why i'm writing this anymore, I seem to have lost the point and the spark. I'm recently getting very annoyed with people telling me who I am, and what I'm like. ESPECIALLY when they really, really, really don't know me. They somehow believe that they know me incredibly well, and that they know the ins and outs of me. Hence the analysing of my moods, calling me Bi Polar, saying I push people away from me who care, and all this rubbish. I just don't see why everyones an expert on other people. I do know you can be better at dealing with other peoples problems than your own, but thats most people. It's easier to make snap decisions about things when it's not directly affecting you, or your partner, or your friends. It's the same thing as making two insects fight, it's very easy to do as it's not affecting you, just something for you to observe.
I just hate it when people are really sure they know you, and they don't believe that you just can have days when you feel a bit meh, a bit grey, just generally a bit rubbish. It's highs and lows of being a functional human being. I'm not going to lie, I do sometimes brush things off when there is a bit more to it, but if I do that it's because I don't want to tell a certain person, or I don't think it's worth whining on about, or I just generally don't want to talk about me. I know that seems a little odd considering I've written a blog post about me, but you know. I find it easier to talk to no one, than to talk to one person, because I don't like talking to people. It's just me. I don't trust people enough to open up, because people ALWAYS tell other people. They can never for the life of them keep their mouth shut, even if it comes to the point where they tell their distant friend who doesn't know you, they'll still tell someone else. And excuse me, but I like my private life, private.

Another thing which winds me up beyond belief, is when your friend has to tell their boyfriend or girlfriend everything. You tell them something in complete confidence and you can bet a month's wages that they'll tell their partner. I've had experience with it a lot, but it's not a point worth raising because they'll still do it. I've found out once before because I told my best friend of the time something imtimate to me and my boyfriend of the time, she told her boyfriend and he decided it'd be funny to make a joke about it, which resulted in him nearly getting himself battered as well as me getting an earful. He wasn't fussed that I told my friend but he was under the impression I also told him ¬.¬

Another one is I was talking about stuff happening with my family, things weren't too smooth. Then her boyfriend, who I'm not going to lie, I do not like, popped up on facebook chat starting a discussion about it. Yeah, thanks, Because that's what I need isn't it. Some fool who knows nothing about anything popping up to console me in this desperate time of need. He only did it to get gossip, he's one of those, and he is desperate to know everything about everyone at all times. Anyway, I'm going too into detail, this isn't a place for me to share what irritates me on a personal level with my peers, so for that I apologise.

Anyway, I'm just venting as per. I don't expect this to be read, it's not my most articulate of blogs and certainly not one filled with substance or meaning.
And on that note, i'm going to watch more Bleach...

Everyones an expert when i'm the subject...

So, i'm apparently 'grumpy' a lot of the time. Or maybe their timing is just wrong? Anyway. I apparently have unpredictable mood swings, that are triggered by nothing and i'm always in a bad mood.

Now, if this was a person who knew me inside out and had known me for a long time, through different phases and moods, and spent varying amounts of time with me I might actually bother to acknowledge what they're saying. But it's not. It's someone who knows me through someone else, has never met me properly or spent any real time with me and also has caught me a few times online when I've been a little ticked off, to say the least.

Now, I don't know if i'm speaking for more than just myself here but I do not like speaking on MSN, full stop. I don't like online chatting to 'get to know' people or whatever. I think you get to know people at an unforced, natural pace, depending on the person and most importantly.. IN PERSON. So, incidents before this online chat, the fact that it was an online chat and the general bad timing and natural mood cycle of a rational human being apparently mean i'm bi polar.

Yep, I'm apparently bi polar. Now, if this was someone who had experience in mental disorders, or in fact just Bi polar disorder I'd be more accepting. If this was someone who even knew me a little bit more than some of my taste in movies and some of my taste in anime, I'd be more accepting.
Also, if this was someone who had the first clue about anything to do with me, or in fact the idea that if someones pissed off they are NOT going to be all sunshine, lollipops and fluffy kittens.. I'd be more accepting. My point?
STOP TALKING OUT OF YOUR FRIGGIN' ARSEHOLE MATE.

Now, I'm not dismissing that I may have something wrong with my mood cycle, or that I may be more prone to bad moods than good moods. I know i'm moody, hell if you don't know that about me then you're seriously out of the loop of vix. But in my opinion, I'm not going to jump aboard the mental disorder boat and claim to have a mental disorder based on the uneducated views of an egotistical male. Yeah, Did you guess it was a guy who said this? Well you should of. Not to be sexist but a lot of the time, I am always challenged by males who think they know everything about everything.

Now, i'm not being funny, no matter how understanding and how well researched you are, you will NEVER be able to tell me how I should be feeling when I have PMT.. alright? You are not female, you do not have periods and you sure as hell have no right to tell me how i should be feeling until you have your own vagina, complete with stomach cramps, feelings of low self worth and general shittiness. Point taken? Thankyou.

Anyway, so this uneducated, unexperienced guy tells me i'm bi polar. Because the past two times he's spoken to me on MSN, i've been in a bit of a bad mood. One because some *idiot* of a fool decided it'd be appropriate to wind me up. And another because I hadn't done my uni work. Notice both these moods could have been avoided by myself, if I had not of let things get to me, right? I know I let things get to me too much but that's how I do. Just like some people compete with anything others say, some shy away from confrontation, these are all personality traits and lacking the ability to not get wound up easily is sometimes mine.

The main reason this really irritated me is because it has apparently become a trend to have mental disorders as of late, from what I've witnessed. So you've got Bi polar disorder, okay... when did you get diagnosed? 'errm... i just knew myself'
Right. So you've diagnosed yourself with a mental disorder, do you even know what Bi polar is?
'Yeah it's mood swings'.

Wrong. That's just the tip of an iceberg, and you know nothing of how it is to be a normal, functioning human being, let alone someone dealing with an actual illness. Get off the bandwagon and stop trying to be 'cool'. If you genuinely had Bi polar disorder you *would not* update your status with it every two seconds and you certainly wouldn't tell everyone you meet within the first few seconds of talking to them.

Another point i'd like to make, is that if a female has a spine, and a brain, and also can articulate her point clearly, concisely and with no room for confusion or in fact questioning, this makes her a bitch. Or again, Bi Polar. Yeah, thanks. So because I can stick up for myself, get a goddamn education and tell you to politely remove yourself and never speak to me again, this means i'm a bitch?

I'm sorry I won't pretend to know nothing to make yourself feel better. I also apologise for not having my head stuck in the latest celebrity gossip whilst constantly planning my next shopping trip. I apologise profoundly for not being another airhead who only thinks about boys and how to please them, I'm sure that makes me a terrible person, I just don't bare thinking about.

So anyway, back to the point. I'm not going to say I have a disorder just because someones told me I have. It's not all going to click into place like their was a piece missing in my oh so pitiful life that this lovely, brilliant white knight has delivered to me by coming up with such a well informed observation.

It really pisses me off that it's 'cool' to be mentally ill, although I find that term a little harsh. I also find it ridiculous that any female with an educated opinion can be accused of such things as well as the usual frigid bitch, cow thing.. etc. And all other names girls who don't wear yo-yo knickers get. I know people who do have such conditions as Bi polar and Borderline. They didn't tell me in the first five minutes, in the first week, or even in the first few months because to them it is an aspect of them and an illness, and is treated like one. They don't make a big deal about it and expect everyone to pussy foot around them. To them, if they're being a dick, you tell them, and they get over it and have the spine to apologise for it if they were out of order.

It's the same with Dyslexia, it's been confirmed as existing and now apparently everyones dyslexic. I'm not saying it doesn't exist, I just think it's another excuse for laziness most of the time. Just learn to spell, focus on doing your work, try to improve yourself. Rather than using it as an excuse to get out of doing homeworks, or assignments. It's pathetic. We all get lazy, just accept it and stop making excuses because you're taking help away from the people who actually need it. Same applies for mental disorders. You want Bi Polar disorder to get the same name? If everyone had it, it's not a disorder. it's nature. Stop pretending as the real people who need the help and medication just get shunned.

It is NOT cool to lie about things. It does not make you cool to have Dyslexia or Bi Polar disorder. Note the word disorder. It's not funny to pretend to be mentally ill or disabled in some way just to seem more interesting. Are you really that boring? Seriously, grow up. At this rate you'll be telling me you have an imaginary friend and i'm the weird one for not being able to see him.

Remember the Emperor's New Clothes? (those who haven't, READ IT, might be a wake up call to some people)
My point exactly.

On the other hand, it doesn't make people who have such conditions uncool :)

But seriously, what's going to be the next trend, deadly diseases?
'Oh, i'm so badly done to, i'm dying, i have AIDS, therefore I can't take responsibility for any of my actions'
Grow. A. Pair.

If you're that boring, get a flippin' hobby. I hear auto-mutilation is back in fashion, quick, be the first to do it! It must be a real trend, you read it on the internetzzzzzz!
*note sarcasm*

LOLcatz fashion is wearing thin, but..

This actually made me wee a little.
This is INEFFABLY cute!
^-^

Zombies, Vampires and Ghouls, oh my!

What is with the trends in made up creatures? Like, seriously.

First it was werewolves, and that had a positive effect, we appreciated it, and then there was the lovely mixed movies, which only really played on an old idea of Vamps vs Werewolves, so you know that was alright. We didn't mind.

Then they tried to get all up in our faces with zombies, but that only had a short run so we're not getting sick to the back teeth of them, and they're comical anyway. The movies made on them are all quite similar but there's only so many shades of blue, ya know?

But lately, all I see EVERYWHERE is vampires. Vampire movies, books, calendars, merchandise, fanatics. All over the place! I swear to god there has not been a single shop I've gone in of recent that isn't trying to forcefeed twilight to me and ram it so far down my throat there's no return. I understand there are some avid fans of twilight (god knows why) but I AM NOT ONE. Nor do I wish to be. I find it quite offensive, and If i was a vampire I'd take it as a personal slap in the face, to be quite frank.

I mean, yes I understand it's a new concept on it, but vampires that twinkle?! Jesus. What next? Werewolves that burst into song right before they maul you within an inch of your life? Seriously, it's getting ridiculous.


I've been a fan of vampires since I can remember. I used to have this big dock off video player in my room which also had channels on it, and once i'd got an aerial I had channels 1-4 in my room. MASSIVE thing back then. Anyway, I used to be sneaky and watch TV late on, And I remember doing it once and watching a movie called Innocent Blood, I loved it. Every minute. Yes, it may not have been a masterpiece, but it was the first drop of my vampire lust. I was like WOW. I'd read children's stories before then but nothing was like watching a movie on them.

Anyway, it sparked my love of them, and still to this day I will go out of my way to see a vampire movie, like daybreakers. I saw that last week on monday, A good watch. I enjoyed it. Yes, not the deepest of movies and a little farfetched with the concept, but then again... vampires are a pretty much made up creature, so I should really ask myself can you call a Vampire concept farfetched? well, I did. Anyway.

I watched all of series 1 of true blood, and yes it completely deviates from the book but you know, it's TV. It's got to cut corners (badly) to get more ratings. I enjoyed it. Like Twilight, it was the romantic element, but I think it's done better. I see vampires as what they are, animalistic, lustful creatures. Their lust not only for sex, but for blood. They will do anything to get what they want, and sometimes they accidentally access their human emotions, like Lestat in Queen of the Damned. I'm not against that.

I'm just sick of this Vampire fetish everyone seems to have at the moment. It's in fashion so we'll all like them. Do the media not realise they are ruining vampires for those who adore them?
Im almost getting sick of them. Obviously I'll always love them, but for now I may need to put my vamp films away and move onto something a bit less commercial.

I hate it when things are ruined, they come into fashion somehow and then they are used and used and used again until the idea becomes sickening and yawn-worthy. Much like a tissue, once it's used it's used. There's no need to repeatedly use it until it becomes holey, fraying all over and quite frankly obsolete.

My main message? Get a new tissue.

Side Note..!!

Some of my favourite Vampire movies of all time!!


From Dusk til Dawn - I just love the idea, and how quickly the movie takes a turn. Yes, it's silly. Yes, the effects aren't brilliant. Yes, it gets rather strange, rather quickly, but I don't care. I love it. Blood, Sexy women, Violence, Witty sarcasm, All out Gore. Not to mention a fucking excellent soundtrack. Win.

Let the right one in - A swedish movie, even if you are a hater of subtitles you need to bite the bullet and watch this movie, otherwise you are massively missing out. A beautiful story of being an outcast and fitting in, not the most conventional story of romance, nor the most in your face vampire flick, but a beautifully constructed piece of cinema. Go see it, NOW!

Queen of the Damned - The acclaimed sequel to ''Interview with the vampire'', another fave of mine. Lestat is cast perfectly, I personally think he's beautiful and very vampire-ish. Focuses on vampires going mainstream but only a little bit, before it became the crucial theme in these modern vamp films. Vicious elements, also shows different sides to vamps. And not to mention the singing voice for Lestat is no other than Johnathon Davis, From my favourite band Korn. Can't go wrong :)

Innocent Blood - Beautifully interesting lead vampire, with an interesting twist on sucking the life force out of us worthless humans ;) And of course, this movie started my fascination with vamp's on the silver screen (read above in main blog). Shows a slight morality between some vamps and also slight mercy, not always though ;)

R,I,P Josh Barnes

Well, I just found out someone i knew has died recently. It was a shock and I hate to say I thought it was a facebook trick when I saw the group made. So much so I actually called my friend to check.
It's true. Hit and Run whilst crossing the road on a zebra crossing. Bastard, whoever did it.

He was such a lovely guy too. None of this i'll speak to you occasionally bollocks that a lot of people have about them. The kind of attitude where if they see you and their on their own they'll come and say hi but if they're with people they'll ignore you.
Josh wasn't like that. Everytime I saw him, be it on his own, in xaverian, in town, he would ALWAYS come over and say hi to me. Always with a big smile and a hug. He was an honestly lovely person, funny too. He made a lot of us laugh a lot, be it with him or at him, he never minded. He was a sweetheart. I'm not just saying this because he's no longer of this world, either. I genuinely mean every word. It really is a crying shame. I know it's left many people stunned and upset, regardless of how well they knew him. He was a recognised good person, and this kind of thing throws us all off course a bit. Such a loss for us all.

I don't like the whole 'they've died, let's sugar coat their personality' rubbish. I think it's ridiculous. No one can be THAT terrible that they have to be lied about. If that was me, I'd hate for people to feel they had to lie on me. We all have bad traits, but we all have good too. Maybe not as apparent, but we do.

Personally, if at my funeral someone said 'yeah, she was moody and stubborn if challenged, but we loved her' i would honestly laugh, if at all possible.

I'm upset Josh has gone, at 18 years of age as well. Poor thing. I really wish him well for his next life cycle, if there is one. I'm not saying I'm dismissing an afterlife, just you never can be too sure. I personally have a mixture of beliefs on things, I think you can come back as different things, not always human, not just animal either, perhaps as a fresh spring daisy, a new born kitten. Who knows?

I think you reach whatever lovely place awaits after you've gained a certain amount of experience, like when you level up on a game. I think you have certain goals, not all the same, but very very personal ones. Like people who have lived selfishly, have to learn how to not be like that, or something crazy like that anyway.

I like to think Karma has an effect too, mainly because I called my mum a cow and tripped over ¬.¬ haha. I was only playing with her, but yeah, back to the point. I have a mix of things i'd like to think are true.

I am personally not scared of death, in the slightest. I mean that wholeheartedly as well, i think that we shouldn't fear it. It's quite an irrational fear in my opinion, but with that said I can understand people's fears. My main fear, if I can call it that, is the effect it will have on those that know me. I wouldn't want extreme sadness, or grief for months, years on end. I'd like them to see that i'm gone and hopefully miss me, but not dwell on it?

You never know, I might become a friends puppy :) I'm not personally religious, and I think this has a big part to play in my mixed thoughts of everything. I learn about something, and relate to some, others I respect but don't believe in. If everyone respected everyone elses beliefs there'd be a hell of a lot less tension between folk, anyway.

But back to my Original point, Josh Barnes. I'm sad you've gone, you were a sweetheart, a genuine nice guy and an all round laugh. I hope you find whatever you were missing in this life, and I hope you will become a beautiful butterfly, as this life was merely the introduction to your true beginning. You will be missed by all, I didn't know you too well and I'll miss you, nevermind your nearest and dearest. It's cruel you were ripped from us in such a way, and i hope justice kicks the person who did it's ass as they are cowardly and spineless, two things you never were and never will be. You had real beauty, and a good heart that shone through the brightest. Enjoy your next life, however mystical or spiritual it may be. You're a diamond, nothing can break you and nothing can compare to your true sparkle. Rest In Peace xx

Remake fever?

I can honestly say I am sick to the back teeth of all these proposed re-makes of recent.
They are planning on re-making Sympathy for Mr Vengeance (park chan wook), as well as countless other perfectly fine, original movies.

Now, Firstly.. WHY the hell do you need to remake a perfectly good, beautifully constructed peice of cinema?
And secondly, why in the name of all things holy do these director's think they'll make it any better by adding an airbrushed, hollywood spin on it?

I just don't get it. It's like getting a child to re-paint the mona lisa. It's just not done. It's rude, disrespectful and most of all, idiotic. Most of these movies are so brilliant and overwhelming because of the original ideas conveyed.

If they remake such a brilliant korean movie, they will do exactly the same pathetic thing they did with Ringu.

They managed to successfully dumb down the entire storyline, so you didn't need much of a brain to figure out what was going on and they made it nothing but a movie about a monster in a well who killed people mercilessly, regardless of anyones attempts to aid them. They lost the charm and quirkiness that the original held and, in my opinion, replaced a perfectly good heroine with a typical attractive blonde woman, up and coming in american movies too, how coincidental.

Ringu is an eerie, strange piece of cinema, and each element works fluidly with another. It engages you, and whilst still being a slow paced movie, it still manages to maintain your interest throughout and as the plot develops you also develop a sense of empathy for the heroine.

Another fault of all these remakes is they lose so much of the storyline and idea in translation, or in most cases just smooth right over it replacing it, again with a dummies version which requires little or no brain power to understand. The worst part? They don't even try to hide the fact that they have basically slapped the original director in the face, hard by casting their concepts aside and adding in their own, idiotic twist.

"I know, let's forget the whole idea of the little boy having the same kinetic powers and just add in a good old spirit possession, because we've NEVER seen that before"

Nice call, Gore Verbinski, ruin another great movie, thanks for that.

Because that's what we ALL need, Another ghost possession movie. So you're now not only remaking and ruining a brilliant movie, you're now going to add in other stolen ideas just to twist the knife a little bit more, Great.

As for the people who watch these god forbidden remakes and claim they are 'better'. You do realise that there wouldn't be the 'better' version without the original, right?
Yes, you may prefer Quarantine, but with your blind ignorance you are massively wide of the mark, as not only has it been changed, they've also missed bits out which were crucial to the success of Rec.

Personally, If I wanted to watch half a movie i'd simply log on to Megavideo and wait until my 72 minutes run out, thanks. I would be left equally as frustrated as I would do if I watched a remake who barely began to cover the basics of a film, so pretty much all of them.

The list continues to grow of movies that have been remade, Shutter, Dark Water, Rec, Ringu, Pulse, and more. Unfortunately, the list of movies to be remade also is increasing, as is my hatred towards them.

Thank god the remake of Oldboy was dead in the water, or so they say, Dreamworks, you've already walked away, don't turn back now.

I hope to the high heavens that 2010 brings fresh, original ideas and new innovative directors, because I don't know about you but i'm thoroughly fed up of being fed the same old tripe in a different wrapper.

Crazy... or Brilliant?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xA8wmqPI63M

I wonder if this would be a hit in the UK?

I'll let you decide....